Goodbye 2013

Happy New Year to all of you out there! Yes, this is a long awaited post. It's near the end of the month and my 'reflect on yourself for 2013' post had been in my draft section for weeks. So, here it is now.

Never in my whole entire life would I expect to score well for my N levels. 9 points. I gave up the thought of getting into the Polytechnic Foundation Program (PFP) before N levels because my prelims results was like shit. I really thought that I was going to ite. You know right before they release the results, they would always show everybody the statistics and the top scorers. I wasn't expecting my name to appear up there, but I just have to take a look, just in case. I did a quick scan through when they flashed the slide which has all the names of all those who are eligible for PFP. AND I SAW MY NAME. Yes, Celia Tan. My name on the big screen. I don't even know how to react to it. To be honest, I didn't really study much for some of the papers since I've already given up hope. It was just luck, really.

With my 9 points, I was easily accepted into PFP but I did not get the course that I want, not even the rest of my choices. Maybe I was a little bit too ambitious for the first two choices. Accountancy in SP and NP. 9 points only want to compete with other people who did better than me. Okay thanks for not letting me get in, but the rest of the courses cannot be the same too right? I did not even get any of my other choices too, they gave me a course in RP which I have never heard of. I did appeal to get into another course, thank you DrSoh for helping me.

Then comes PFP orientation. A time to meet my new classmates and make new friends. I was super duper nervous. Was always with the same people in secondary school, and the two NA classes all know each other. I rarely make new friends, and getting into RP means that I'll be changing classes and meeting new people every semester. So glad that we remain in the same class throughout the whole of our PFP year. I met really great people and I love all of my classmates.

Getting into poly means that I won't be together with SexySix anymore. Somehow we became a bit distant because we rarely meet up. Most of our birthdays are at the end of the year. I'm glad we still took out some time to meet up for dinner. JoleneLim, WenTing and I were getting used to the poly life. JinYan, Geraldine and Victoria were already studying hard for O levels. We became a lot more closer again at the end of the year when their O levels are finished and Wenting, Jolene and I were having holidays.

2013 is a year that I really grew a lot. I find myself more nice looking. Not those pretty type but if you compare the me now and the me back in 2011. A big difference. There were a lot of other changes too. I got my first heilx piercing just because I have a strong feel to pierce my ear. I became a lot more sociable and learnt to mix around. I've learnt to appreciate my own things and the people around me more. There are a lot others which I can't think of now. But I can really say that I've matured a lot.

Okay, so here comes the thankful for everybody in my life part. Have fun reading.

I'm really thankful for meeting the girls of SexySix since 2009 and WenTing in 2011. Now, I can say that I have true bffs. They are the ones who never left me when I was a mess. Thinking back and counting the years we know each other, I swear I've never had any true girlfriends who remained by each other's side no matter what happens. And I've finally found them. Doing all the crazy things together, planning last minute meet up, lending a listening ear to each other, bitching every single time we meet up, and just making each other laugh. I can never thank them enough, because I'm like one of the youngest in the group, and they'll take care of me. Making sure that I'm alright when I'm feeling down and telling me the right thing to do. I can never ever stop loving them.

I'm thankful for Class P for being such an awesome class. There'll be laughter every single day. We're like the noisiest class out of the entire PFP. I can't believe that our PFP year is already coming to an end in just about 5 weeks more. Time really really flies, and this coming April, we're gonna be in Year 1 and meet new people all over again. Thank you for making my PFP year so interesting, fun, and worth looking forward to. I really like how everybody is so open to each other and we can just keep talking and talking non stop. I will never forget all of you.

I'm thankful for Nicholas, Darren, Edwin, YongSheng, YuJin, YewRen and DeWei. Yes, I'm so glad our friendships remained the same ever since 2009 and for some, 2011. I swear you guys are true gentlemen. Tolerating SexySix's bullshit all the time, waiting for the girls to decide where to eat when we all meet up, making really stupid and lame jokes all the time. Even though you guys suddenly grew so tall, all of the characters still the same. Never change since 2009/2011. Thank you for making me feel comfortable being around guys and being good friends with you all.

I'm thankful for JueYun, Patrice, Euvene, Baer, BaoYi, Elaine and Amanda for always lending me a listening ear and telling me what to do when I have no idea what to do. YOU GUYS ARE ALSO THE ONES WHO MAKE ME SPEND MY MONEY LIKE NOTHING LIKE THAT! Now I'm like addicted to good food. Ippudo (which I still have not tried it yet), KBBQ, some restaurants. Every single time we go out and eat, we'll be eating at a restaurant unless someone have cravings for kopitiam food. But I really enjoyed being around you all. Really thankful that we're able to meet each other.

I'm thankful that I made up with ZhiYing and LinHui. Especially ZhiYing, because of what happened in 2010. LinHui was like the middle person and ZhiYing and I had a really big fight. I did some really mean things to her, and whenever I think about it, I can't help but to feel bad for all the things I did. She texted me first during Christmas with a really long and heart-warming text. Wishing me Merry Christmas and also apologising for the things that she did in the past. At that point, I was really sure that she's a true friend. They forgive and forget. If not for her first move, I doubt we will still be talking now. I can't approach her first because of the things that I did to her. I can't believe I did that too.. But I'm glad that we made up before 2013 ends and we're in talking terms now.

I'm thankful for my family members. Especially my mum, we became closer and she will teach me what to do when she's suppose to. Unlike last time when she does it almost every day, and it's so annoying I can die. Seriously. It's that annoying. I also became closer to my gugu and her family. She even organised a birthday bbq for me for my 17th brthday. So thankful.

I guess the word 'thankful' came out like a million times in this post, but I'm really really really thankful for the people around me. All the little things that they do to make my life more happy. I really do appreciate it. I'm thankful for the people who made me unhappy too. You just made me learn from it and mature. So, thank you. 2013 was a great year for me! Made so many new friends, still on good terms with my close friends, made up with an old friend who I knew since 2009 and most importantly, I became more mature and learn to think for people. I guess these are things which you can only learn as you get older.

Once again, have a great 2014!